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Dec 22, 2004
I havent been writing for soooo long. No particular reasons, really. I just didnt have the mood to write. Malas more like it. That's sooooo lame kan? But what the heck.
I've been triggered to write, honestly. Many times, in fact. There were countless times when i felt like sharing thoughts and feelings, but didnt blog about it. Conversations in my head feel enough, most of the time.
But today.. i'm determined about blogging this. Between coughs, i think i'll manage. Yup.. my health has not been good lately. Like my sister said, i've been soooo lembik during my pregnancy. Very contrary to my normal self, really. I'm now 5 months along.. and i've had so many fever attacks.. now i'm coughing like a madman.. i've had flu, you name it. But really, i wont complain too much about it.
We went to see my gynae last Saturday. I was so nervous and excited about seeing the doctor this time, because i was hoping to know the gender of my baby.. and of course i'm desperately hoping to hear that my placenta has gone up. I've been worried about that since it was still "down" the last time we went for a checkup. Alhamdulillah.. the placenta has indeed gone up. And doctor says my baby seems perfectly normal. So i asked him.. is it possible to tell the gender now? He said.. "let's see" and focused on the legs. As God have it, as if my baby had sense my eagerness to know the gender, the legs were stretched alright.. So, the doctor pointed to the screen and said.."This is the leg.. and this is the other leg.." and then i saw it... right there in between.. Hihi... And the doctor said.." And that.... is his penis".. Cant be more obvious than that, really... I was soo happy.. (not that the happiness would be any different if it were a girl, i was just happy to know.. you know?), i was practically beaming!
Right after we went out from the doctor's room, Husband called his family to share the news.. Only, he was greeted with another news: Husband's youngest sister, who is my age, and now almost 8-month pregnant, was working on friday, as usual, when she felt like fainting. Guessing that something was wrong, she went to the clinic, and was referred to the hospital. It was there that she received the scarriest news of her life. The doctor says, something could be wrong with her baby. That there seem to be some sort of a liquid in the baby's brain. She was warded.
Husband called her when we got home. She was in the hospital. And as i thought she would be, she was almost hysterical. She was crying, to say the least. Frantically saying that her baby wont be normal. Husband told her to calm down.. After all, it was only a doctor's opinion. She has an appointment with a gynae set on Tuesday. We crossed our fingers and pray..
Last night, i reminded Husband to call home. But before he could do that, while we were having dinner, his uncle called. Among other things, he said that it was confirmed that there is indeed "lendir" in the baby's brain. It could be because of viral infection and err.. another explaination which i dont understand too well. Husband said something like "telur tak cukup matang masa persenyewaan". Now, i have zilch knowledge on this. I was hoping to find something on the net about this today.. But honestly, i dont know where to start. I wished i could be there when the doctor said all this. I just need to know. What causes this? Whats the implications of this?
So, Husband's sister is set to meet yet another gynae, this time at the HKL. The appointment is set to be next Monday. They may have to perform a caesarian, as from what i hear.
Husband called home after that. Mak (my MIL) and wan (Husband's grandma) were at the mosque. They're flying this 30th to do their Haj.. and i know, they will be worried sick about N ( Husband's sis). N was the one who picked up the phone. What else is there to say, but to bersabar? And pray hard. Husband was lost for words. When Mak and Wan are not around, Husband, as the eldest shoulders the responsibility. Of course, N has her husband Z, but still.
Both of us could not finish our dinner. In my head, i kept imagining if i were in her shoes. Nauzubillah. N and Z has been married for more than 2 years now. This baby is much waited for, really.
I hope and I pray that all will be well. I pray that N and Z will pull this through. That the baby will pull this through. We have to prepare for the worst, but pray and hope for the best. I pray that N will gather her courage to fight her fears. I understand her feelings too well. Tuhan menguji mengikut kemampuan kita. Thats what i believe. If she is tested with this, she does have what it takes to fight this through. The strength she might never know existed in her. And with every test, i believe there is a hikmah. Time will tell. I know.
As for now, we'll pray hard.
It's hard to explain the kind of bond a mother has with her unborn child. Not until one goes through the experience herself. That's why i wont make a fuss about being too tired.. about my bulging tummy.. (really it is big, now..hihi), about having to drag myself out of bed, to the toilet every 35 minutes at night.. (ok, so i am exaggerating there..;) ).. as long as i know my baby inside me is alright. I'm counting my blessings. I am. I really, really am.
Posted at 10:59 am by serenereen
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Oct 12, 2004
Just spoken (as in via YM) to my faraway best friend. It's been ages, i feel, since the last time we chat. He's been busy, travelling... as usual. The last we actually met was before i got married. That would be at least 6 months ago. We had superb Dim Sum in Mandarin Oriental Hotel. Man, it was the most yummy Dim Sum i've had. Ooo man, now i really want Dim Sum!
Faraway best friend, FW, just lost his handphone, again! No wonder he had been so quite. Usually.. we would exchange SMS. Once monthly, at least. It's the thought that counts, remember? I sent him one some weeks back, and never got his reply. It made me wonder. And i finally managed to catch him online today. Apparently he just got back from Japan. Well, i should have known since the last F1 race was held there, wasnt it? If only i read THAT section in the newspaper. Haha. Next he's heading to Brazil. Now i know..;)
I told him he's a lucky guy. Attached to a well known company, doing a job most people can only dream of. Some dare not even dream of it! But i guess, after some time, he's getting tired of travelling. And seeing unfamiliar faces, almost all the time. Well, i told him.. you cant win all.. right? You win some, you lose some. C'est la vie. What's important is that you enjoy what you're doing, and be thankful for what you have. YOU choose how you feel, sis always said. True.. very true.
FW and i, we have been best friends for the last 8 years or so. We were both "forced" to go to a place we didnt want to go.. (i.e. the place i went for matriculation). I so hated the thought of studying locally then. All i could think about was going abroad to further my studies. So did he. But fate has its own plan. We met there, in the matriculation centre. Both were struggling to make the best out of it. We were classmates all through matriculation. And most, during our degree years.
No one knows just how we could be good friends. I wonder sometimes, too. He is outspoken, and i was extremely sensitive especially towards words. Hehe.. Yup. He speaks whatever crosses his mind, and most of the time, it hurt my sensitive heart. I'm the manja manja - ngader ngader type, and he is this "dont-do-or-talk-nonsense-with-me" kinda guy.
But he's always there when i needed him. He was there when i had stupid arguments with my ex boyfriend. He forced himself to stay awake at 3 am one morning, when i called crying over my break up. He came running one morning, when i had a disagreement with my sisters, and i just jumped on a bus to nowhere.
And i know, i've been there for him too. Havent seen him crying though. Haha. I was with him, when he attended an interview in Malacca. It was a journey i would always remember. We had a flat tyre and all sorts of things. It was also that night, that we casually discussed why we had always been great friends, but never had anything errr.. lovey dovey. It was mutual, the feeling. The comfort of being together. The comfort of knowing we would always be there for each other no matter what. And as we were both unattached at that time, we made a pledge, that if were both still single at the age of 30, we would just marry each other. Yeah, blame it on My Best Friend's Wedding. Of course, the ending is different. But, one thing remains the same, we would always be the best of friends.
And i know, after a brief session of chatting just now, despite the distance, we ARE still and will always be.. US.
Posted at 05:30 pm by serenereen
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Oct 6, 2004
As anyone would have guessed by now.. My laziness hasn't stopped. But this time around, i feel like a lot has happened, while i was feeling lazy. Thus making me lazier, if that is possible.
The latest "event", was definitely the most scariest of them all. Found myself bleeding last tuesday night. I was just lazying around.. doing nothing at home, when suddenly i realized i was bleeding. Blood was literally all over. I felt like my heart stopped at that very moment. We rushed to see my gynae, but unfortunately he was busy performing Caesarian operation that night. So, we went to another branch of the clinic to see another gynae, which, much to my relief, was just as nice as my gynae. I was praying so hard then.. And trying very hard to stay calm too. And i know, Husband was struggling to maintain his emotion as well. He was trying his best to stay calm for me. Though i actually wouldnt mind it soo much if he's just as.. errrrr... emotional as i was.
Anyway.. the gynae scanned.. and my dam of tears just exploded.. i was soooooo relieved to see the baby. Could even see the heart beating.
To cut the long story short, the gynae asked me to just rest for the rest of the week. So last week, i was at home, just lying down. The first day it was ok. By the second day.. the boredom was a little overwhelming. Hehe. Kept on changing the channels on TV. Watched everything on air, practically. From Oprah, to 911, right down to sesame street and barney. Boy, i love that purple giant! Haha...
Anyway..the monday before the incident, i had my first chance of using my "powerful" working pass to roam around in KLIA. I've had the pass with me for almost a year now, but never really had the chance to go in there, as in the satellite building. I knew, i could. But i just didnt have the chance. So last monday, me and my technician went there to inspect one of our workstations that is located wayyyy inside the satellite building. I've never been in there since i've never travelled abroad.. well, not since KLIA existed actually. Went to Japan back in 1994, but that's a different story. And at that time, we flew from Subang Airport anyway.
It was great going there. Maybe because it's my first time. Frequent flyers must have been bored already by now, i dont know. Found some really nice postcards in one of the shops in there. And they cost only RM1 each!! But, i didnt buy any, though.. since we're not allowed to. Although, i find that a lil strange since they're giving a 10% discount for the staff. Buying is easy.. taking the stuffs out is the problem actually. So, i'll just buy the postcards when i get to travel abroad one day.. or maybe when my faraway sis comes home next time.. Now i know i can wait for her in there!! Yipppeee yey yey!! It's been a while since i last bought a postcard. I've been collecting postcards since 2 years back maybe. I bought some, mostly are from friends and family. Especially my faraway best friend (dont even know where he is now.. Italy? Zurich? errr.. wherever the F1 racing is held.. he's there.. i lost track..haha). I only know i'll get a postcard from wherever he's at. Interesting postcards, he sent. All sizes and shapes. Lucky me! ;-)
Time for a lil break. In case i fall into laziness again, have a nice week, people!! Be good!
Posted at 12:08 pm by serenereen
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Sep 17, 2004
What a wonderful world...
Hmm... it's been 2 weeks since i last wrote. I have not been away. I have only been lazy. Haha.. My over-used word these days. Cant get enough of feeling it (lazy) though. Nothing much had happened anyway. Except that i've been quite sickly lately, which i was told, a normal phase in pregnancy. Normal, as it may be, i feel weird nonetheless. For having this and that kind of sickness which i dont normally get.
I'm down with flu and fever right now. Cant even remember when was the last time i feel so sick. Blocked nose is the thing i hate most. Sleeping with your mouth open, as u try to breathe is not a pretty sight. Not that i watch me sleep.. hehe, mana boleh.. but it's within my imagination.. Be it pretty or not. But as weird as it may sound, i kinda love having running nose. There's just something about having flu that i feel so cool about. Well, at this stage, it aint so bad, i can still love it lah. The worst flu i've ever had was back in 1995, when i was in Secondary 5. Had it on and off for 3 months!! Carried boxes and boxes of tissues to class. I thought it was cool. Dont ask me why. I just thought it was. Cool ey??
Had my first appointment with a gynae last 2 weeks. I was down right nervous. For no reason. It went really well. Dr. Zul turns out to be a very friendly doctor. Answered all my questions in details. He makes me feel good, mostly knowing that i can ask just about anything. Had my first scan, nothing much to see of course, just a tiny dot. The baby is only 1.4cm. Cute ey? My next appointment with Dr. Zul is on 2nd of October. I look forward to seeing him again. i just hope it's not yet time to give me any kinds of injection yet. Hehe.. That would spoil the fun!
My eldest sis has just got herself a new car. After a long wait, and many days of sakit hati, that is. But the point is, the car is here. And i'm gonna go and see it today. Cant wait! Will stop by at her place on my way home balik kampung with Husband later this evening.
Oh, one good news.. KS will not be staying with us. Husband said no to her request, which makes me feel sooooo relieved. It wasnt easy for Husband to say no to KS, i know. But it's something he has to do. Prevention (of feeling sakit hati, tak puas hati.. bla bla bla) is better than cure after all. Get what i mean? I'm just so glad.
I havent been doing much lately, in terms of house chores. Lazy is one thing, *wink*, feeling tired endlessly is another thing. Husband cooks, cleans.. do the laundry and all. I'm one helluve lucky gal!! Yipppeeee... :). The only thing that i still do on most days is, prepare breakfast before we go off to work. Well, sometimes taking out the cereal and fresh milk could be tiring too you know? ;). So there, i do contribute a lil, still.. Lalalalala....
I think i'll go jalan jalan for a while. It's freezing cold in here. Have a nice weekend, peeps!
Posted at 12:10 pm by serenereen
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Sep 2, 2004
Been feeling lazy (again and again) these days. Especially on updating the blog. Reason is, i have sooooo many things to tell, i dont know where to start.
First and foremost, and shall i say, the base of all the stories is.. i have solved the mysteries of mee-craving, and me, feeling like the most malas person on planet earth... - i am pregnant!!!!
It's a long story as to how i finally get the confirmation (of course it's NOT a long story as to how i get pregnant, duh!!!). It began some 2 weeks back, when i said in my blog, that my menstrual came much earlier than expected, if you remember. I now know that what i had then, is what they called "spotting" <- lesson learnt from faraway sis. Which is also, a common sign of pregnancy.
Anyway.. to cut a long story a bit shorter, i did a self test last 2 saturdays, after being advised by a close friend. So, dengan berdebar debarnya, woke up early on saturday morning, and did the test, as i read that the most accurate test is using the first urine in the morning. And much to my surprise, the result was +ve. Called my friend pagi2 buta, to ask her whether it's valid since the 2nd line is not as thick and clear as the indicator line. Since she is no expert herself, (haha), she advised me to visit a doctor. Especially more since i was supposed to have a bowling tournament later that day. So me and Husband went to the clinic and did the test.
The result was -ve pulak. Lagi menyakitkan hati is that, the doctor is soooo la stupid! Ok, before that, for those who doesnt know, let me tell you that there are a LOT of pregnancy test kits out there in the market. Price ranges from as low as 5 ringgit to puluh2 ringgit, for ONE test!. If you go to the pharmacy in front of my house, they have only 3 types.. Rm 5, 8 and 10. And the pharmacist said, he especially recommends the 10 ringgit one, as that one is the most sensitive. So, that morning, i had used the 10 ringgit one.
This stupid doctor, used the 5 ringgit one. Cheapskate. And when it tested negative, i told him about the spotting, my +ve test earlier that morning and all. And i told him, it was clearly having 2 lines. He, sarcastically said.."Ni CLEARLY satu line je" pointing at the damn 5 ringgit thingy! SO i said... "that's why i'm HERE.. i want confirmation.. NGOK" of course the NGOK part was only in my heart la kan.. Dah la guna 5 ringgit, lepas tu, he charged me 20 ringgit. Chisssss... I'll never ever go there again!
Anyway.. since the doctor said it was negative.. i went for the bowling tournament.. and had lotsa fun!
A week later... echeh.. macam drama minggu ini pulak... yet another saturday.. i decided to do another self test. This time, i used the 5 ringgit one pulak. And the result was positive! But Husband and i didnt want to be happy just yet.. fearing that i would turn out the same as the week before. We had planned to go back to both kampungs that day.. and over lunch, husband asked whether i would want to tell the news to my family. He said, it might not be a good idea to tell if it's not confirmed. I agreed.
So.. to confirm it... i ran (err.. drove actually) to the pharmacy, and bought another 2 test kits. Haha.. Just to be sure. And both, tested +ve this time. So we packed our bags, and drove to the clinic.. No, no that stupid clinic.. another one, which turns out to be a MUCH better one.. AND they do NOT use the 5 ringgit test kit! And alhamdulillah, the result, this time was positive.
I was nonetheless shaken by the confirmation. Nak keluar from the doctor's room pun terketar2.. Husband was waiting outside.. jalan ke hulu ke hilir, tak senang duduk. The moment i stepped out of the doctor's room, i knew he was trying to read my expression. It took all i have to keep a straight face... i handed him the test kit (the doctor gave that to me, and asked me to keep it for kenang kenangan.. hehe). Husband looked at it.. looked at me.. and said.."So?" heheheh.. he's soo blur and nervous, he could not even think, i figured.. so i told him.. "doctor said, the baby is 5 weeks already"
We took a journey back to my hometown after that, during which i think Husband drove slower that he usually does. Hehe..
Broke the news to my family, and of course everybody was ecstatic. I wish faraway sis and that little angel were around, so i could tell lil kitty she's gonna have a baby cousin soon.. Lalalalala...
Spent one night at my parents place.. and went back to Husband's hometown the next day. 5 minutes after we arrive, i think everybody knows the good news already. Haha... Talk about efficient networking.. ;)
Hmm.. almost time to go home now. I havent cooked for days. That's the best thing so far, about being pregnant. Husband is, like always, ever so understanding. Weird thing is.. i noticed lately.. i dont cook all that much, and when i DO cook, i dont eat all that much. But when we eat out, or Husband cooks, i eat like there's no tomorrow. Haha.. Maybe i should just forget about cooking for the time being and indulge myself in Husband's cooking. Yummy.. He's a good cook!
Okay, time to go home and be extra lazy. I'm extremely tired as it is. And my back hurts.
Posted at 06:27 pm by serenereen
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Aug 26, 2004
Of feeling extra, extra lazy
I'm just feeling so, sooo lazy these days. I'm lazy to do just about anything. I'm even lazy to drive to work. I love driving. But now, i'm plain lazy.
It's been a tiring week. Had everyone (mum, dad, sis, bros and all) at home over the weekend for one of my brother's convocation. It's just so nice having everyone around. The noise, the non-stop story telling. Though i knew, it could have been nicer if my other bro, KN could join (he's in a boarding school and was not allowed to go home since he'll be sitting for PMR soon), and of course, my faraway sis and bro-in-law, and the angelic lil kitty.
Took the monday off, since the convocation itself was on monday. Had a meeting in HQ on tuesday, didnt manage to finish it, so the meeting continued yesterday. The good thing about having meetings in HQ is that, it's near Husband's office. That also means, i can just go home with him. and THAT means, i didnt have to drive home! Yey. Did i tell you, i'm feeling lazy these days?
And for 2 days in a row, i didnt prepare dinner. Too lazy. Had dinner on our way home instead. Thank God, Husband is ever so understanding. He's feeling tired himself, from what i can see. If not, i'm pretty sure he would have offered to cook, as he often would.
So today, i'm back in the office. Feeling as lazy as ever. Urghhh.. bila nak pukul 5.30 ni??
Oh, had a bowling tournament with my previous company last saturday. It was fun. It had been a year since i last played. So i was a little nervous. But it turned out ok, though my team didnt win. Haha. The friendship ties in my previous company is absolutely the best. I know i cant find better colleagues anywhere else. But i had no choice but to leave the company. I was stagnant. I felt like i was an extra baggage to the company. And i hated the fact that my immediate superior looked down, not only at me, but at women in general.
Cant wait for the weekend to arrive. Will have a long weekend (until tuesday that is). I hope i could get all the rest i need.
This is a very monotonous entry, dont u think? Did i tell you, i'm feeling extra lazy??
** Crossing my finger **
Posted at 03:55 pm by serenereen
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Aug 20, 2004
Good things dont always happen to good people
Case 1.
RB and wife has been trying to get a child. It's been 3 years or so. RB is a very nice guy. I like him a lot. Cheerful, chirpy, witty person, with a good heart. They've tried everything as far as i know. Even tried drinking a certain herbs that made his urine turned green once. Haha. Recently, he told me that they are trying the implant method. It's good that they can afford it, coz from what i heard from him, the total cost was well into the 5-digits area. It was an expensive risk. Doctors cannot guarantee the result. They implanted 3 errr pre-fertilised (excuse my ineloquence of knowledge here) eggs into the wife's womb. If luck is all by their side, they're gonna have a triplet. Worst case scenario is, all 3 didnt make it. I was crossing my finger, hoping that at least one would survive. This morning, over breakfast, RB told me that it has failed. I didnt know what to say. Sorry isnt enough. Him, being so casual at it does not help. I know he's disappointed beyond anything imaginable. I asked how did his wife take it. He said she's ok. Maybe she's just hiding it from him, he said. And as he was trying to console her, he said they could always adopt. But later he thought that might not be the wisest thing to say, as that may have indicated that he still very much want a child. I told him, if i were his wife, what he said was just what i wanted to here. That there ARE options, still. WHat makes me sad is that, the clinic that they went to, KNEW that there could be complications. They said, it didnt work out because there's this water (again, my 'knowledge' is based from what i could interpret from his story alone. dont shoot me if you're a doctor. I'm not), inside her womb that somehow affected the eggs. And the doctor KNEW this all along. Didnt even bother to tell RB and wife. On the contrary, they told him of their confidence that the process is going to be succesful. Now they're suggesting for the wife to undergo a major surgery to remove to "water". But RB said, there are too many complications. He doesnt have the heart to make his wife go through it all. Even as they were in the implant process, his wife had to take an injection all over her tummy every 7 am. I dont know if i have the guts to go through all that. And at the end of the day, the process failed. What can i say? Sometimes good things dont happen to good people.
Case #2.
Just as the rest of us, HM had been in and out of love. I dare say that the last relationship hit her harder than her previous ones. She thought he was perfect for her. But he thinks he didnt deserve her (i could easily kill anyone who says that. There's no such thing, if you want to break up, just say it. dont come up with some lame excuses, chicken!). Why? Because she was doing her masters, and he was just a diploma holder. He felt threatened. Yup, stupid male ego. Over the years, i knew deep down that HM didnt get over the guy. And secretly, with none of her friends knowing, she keeps in touch with the guy, occassionally. And i know, deeeeeep down in her heart, she was hoping for a miracle to happen. And she waited patiently as the guy went to university to get a degree. At least that would reduce the gap. Last night, HM received a text from the guy, telling her that he's getting married this coming weekend. And he had the guts to ask her.. "awak marah ke?" ("Are you mad?"). HM casually said, she has no reason to. And deep down in MY heart, i know HM is deeply hurt yet again. But at the same time, i know that the jerk didnt deserve her. I'm crying for HM. But i know she has what it takes to get over this. And i will be there every step of the way. After all, good things dont always happen to good people.
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I always believe that things happen for a reason. There are many twists in life, which most of the time, we're not able to decipher, let alone be happy with. But as i said in one of my previous postings, God has bigger plans, always. That, i hold on to. And i believe that sometimes when God delayes us from getting what we want so much, no matter how badly we want it, He knows better. I remember my first class during my university days, my lecturer told us of one verse in the Holy Quran, that literally says, "What you want may not be the best for you, And what you detest may not necessarily be bad for you" I felt like he was speaking to me, as i had detested even the idea of attending that particular university. I had wanted to go abroad. And today, as i look back, i KNOW, with all my heart, that God DOES have a bigger plan for me, even then, when i was too angry at Him to realize it.
It's easier to deal with rough patches in life, knowing that God gives whenever HE feels is most suitable. You just have to keep on trying. Keep on asking. He GIVES when asked. Sometimes he gives it unconditionally. Sometimes, we have to pass His tests. But He gives, just have faith. Sometimes He pays cash.. sometimes he wants us to be just a lil bit more patient. For He knows why.
Posted at 02:19 pm by serenereen
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Aug 19, 2004
need i say more?
Posted at 11:52 am by serenereen
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Aug 18, 2004
It's a sad day. Nothing too sad happened, but i'm just feeling sad. Maybe we can blame it on PMS. Haha. The best excuse when you're on a rampage. And the best reason to get the day off. Especially if your boss is as nice as mine. Whenever i have it and i dont feel like staying in the office, all i have to say is, "Boss, can i go back a lil early today? it's the time of the month, and i think i need some extra rest". He never said No. Lucky me, huh?
A lil worried though, menses came much earlier than expected. More like a week ealier. Husband says, maybe i had just a lil too much of fried mee. Haha.. Faraway sis said, maybe my body is still adjusting. Maybe.
Not enough with 2 shaking news i had the last 2 days, a jerk managed to shake me early in the morning. I was driving, light-heartedly, singing along to the tunes, moving not even at 5km/h (yup, bad congestion on the way to work, as always) when a car came from behind, on the lane next to me (potong queue, selfish jerk) and tak semena mena, hit my side mirror. I was shaken, least to say! There i was, PERFECTLY staying in my own lane, queuing so very patiently, not heeding all the cars cutting the queue when this stupid car come and just hit the side mirror. BUTA ke apa?? Jalan sikit punya besar ke.. nak jugak langgar side mirror orang! The thing is, even a lorry passed by me. Takde pun langgar2. Wira BODOH tu jugak nak langgar. For the record, it was not a lady driver. i honk, n honk, n honk. Just to puaskan hati. Of course the car didnt stop. I dont think he cared. Luckily no damage was done to my car. Just a lil scratch, enough for me to say that it happened, as a proof when i show it to Husband later. I was driving his car, actually. He took mine to work since it's more fuel efficient. I dont care what happened to that stupid wira sedan. I hope he crashed reallly bad the next time he hits someone other cars' side mirror. I sound bad, i know. I dont care!
My department decided to hold a motivational seminar (yucks). Thing is, they want to have it on this coming 30th and 31st august. And only annouce it this morning! I went berserk! They dont have the right to do it on a public holiday! Plus, i made plans already. And my nice boss is aware of my plans already. So he told me jst to right to my big boss. And i did. Sempat selitkan sarcasm sikit, saying that they should not take a public holiday from us. Dah la buat kat some lousy hotel. Kalau best tu, nak jugak pergi kot. Hehe. Anyway.. i'm praying that my big boss would approve of my excuse. Amin.
Ever heard of a company dinner which doesnt allow you to bring your spouse, or family? My company does that. Cheapskate. Nama je company besar. I dont mind paying pun, as long as they allow us to bring our spouse. But no, that's not an option. Last2 terus cancel dinner. Lagi elok! Now, seminar motivasi?? urghhh..
Kinda miss my family. Everyone would be around this weekend, for my brother's convocation. Except my faraway sis and her husband, and of course our darling lil angel. sob sob.
Another half an hour to go home. i want to be lazy today. Yey.
Posted at 05:57 pm by serenereen
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Aug 17, 2004
Family ties and mee goreng fetish
Mom found my youngest brother KF on the floor yesterday morning. Apparently he fainted while he was putting his school uniform on. Luckily my other brother AS was home. Took KF to the hospital.
KF was in boarding school for a few months. He was bullied. Didnt want to believe him at first, I personally thought he's just not being strong enough. Just creating stories to go out of the school so he could attend the school near our home. After all, he's the baby of the family. But later on, things got worse. Kena sepak, terajang.. everything, you name it. So, my parents went to the school, lodge a police report, took him out of the school. Before anything worse happens, might as well take him out of the living hell. As a result, i think 2 of the seniors got kicked out. Served them right! They cried, and apologized to my dad, saying that they need to stay in school, they're taking SPM this year. Dad says, they should have thought about that BEFORE they kenakan KF habis-habis. Haaa.. Padan Muka.. Go Dad!
It's sad isnt it? The scenario in schools today. And why do religious schools have more cases of this? KF's school was so called a religious school. But is religious school only about the attire.. and the subjects they learn? Honestly, i've never been fond of such schools. But that doesnt mean i dont have faith in religion. I do. I just dont have faith in religious school. Not all of course, but sadly, majority. My impression of them coming from religious school isnt good. They always think they're better off.. konon2 sebab ada agama AND dunia. Again, not all, but sadly (again..) majority. And when i entered my uni, the perception didnt change. (Trust me, the place is swarming with 'those' people) It only makes me think i'm right. I befriended some of them, some are ok, some are not. I may be shallow, but blame it on the people i've befriended and observed. They confirmed my theory. My latest confirmation - my brother was bullied by these people. And i'm grateful his news didnt make it to the front page, why? Because he's not dead! He's very much alive, and kicking. And i thank God for that. When you read the news on paper, you cant imagine it happening to your brother can you? We always think, that's not gonna happen to us. I know now.. THAT can happen to anybody.
Anyway, eversince then, i noticed KF occasionally has trouble breathing. Mom took him for a medical check up. He's ok. But now i wonder.. what causes him to faint? He was gasping for air when AS shook him awake. And the most annoying part is that, doctor gave him pills for fever and some vitamins. No further check? Goverment hospital.. need we say more?
And today.. got a text from my dad, asking me to call Mom (dad's away in another state for work) to check her out. Apparently today, she fell, on her way out from the bathroom. Thank God she's ok. But that news was enough to leave me shaking. 2 incidents in 2 days. I hope that's the end of it. Cant take anything else for now.
On a lighter note, am fasting today. Had my very first sahur with Husband.. Haha. Come to think of it, this is our only time to enjoy sahur berdua-duaan, since come Ramadhan, KS probably is with us already. :-(. Aiyak.. ok, i dont want to spoil my mood.
Hmm.. been craving for fried mee lately. And anybody who knows me well, know that i do NOT eat mee all that much. When i was 10, i remember i had mee for dinner at my grandma's sister's house, and i puked 14 times that night alone. And since that night, i make sure i dont eat mee, fearing the puke incidents will happen again. And i managed to convince myself that mee doesnt taste that good anyway. But recently, out of nothing, i have this craving for mee. So, since i dont trust the kedai to goreng the mee for me, i made it myself. And that night, i slept ever so peacefully. Haha. Thought my craving would end there. But guess what? I had mee goreng 3 times last week, and tonight i'm going to have the 3rd one for this week. (Gosh, it's only tuesday!) I'm going nuts over mee goreng. Really. Thank God it's simple to prepare. And thank God Husband never complains about the unvaried menu lately.
Now i have to go and make a list of what to buy at the store after work today to make my mee goreng extra nice! Yummy nyum nyum!
Posted at 05:19 pm by serenereen
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